busy

Is being busy a virtue? It's almost as if it is considered something to be proud of. This is what one of the new leaders on staff at Grace Chapel talked about a few Sundays ago. And it really hit me how I've made being busy something to be proud of.

It's interesting to think about. I will not lie - I've been proud, at times, about the fact that I did not have one single moment of the day to sit down and put my feet up. I've been proud that I'm not lazy, and that I fill my day up to the limit.

But you know what? It has taken a toll on me. I'm not proud of how my life is unfolding day to day. I'm not proud that I've filled my day up so much that quiet time and reflection is an after thought as I drift off to sleep. I've not made time for God. I've not made time for others. I've not made time to be QUIET.

It's not like I get out a lot. I just constantly have something needing my attention. Kids. Work. Laundry. Housework. Dinner. Grocery Lists.

We all have stuff to do, but I have too much. There has been no balance in my life.

What am I doing about this? Well, I can't stop being a mom, I can't stop being a wife, so I decided to stop being a bookkeeper. My relationships are taking a hit - God, family, and friends. I'm at my wits end every night, nearly in tears because I'm so tired and don't make time to refuel.

I'm going to concentrate on my relationships. All of them. They all need work. I should be done working sometime by the end of September. Let me tell you, October is looking sunny for my life!