back in may...losing my identity

I was trying to find this little thing I'd written all the way back in May. I could not find it and was so annoyed because I KNEW I'd written it. Then I remembered, oh yeah, I had this crazy idea that maybe I'd start some type of inspirational something or other. Yeah, sounds profound, I know. 

Anyway, I started it in a Word document, not a blog. Here's my thoughts.....

Losing my identity?

Bryan brought up this topic today. Someone at his men’s retreat a few weeks ago said that women lose their identities when they have children. They drop their own ambitions and dreams all for their children.

I somewhat agree with this. I don’t feel like I’ve lost my identity. I feel that it’s shifted. I’m still not all that aware of what all my new dreams and aspirations are, but they are definitely focused on raising my children rather than accomplishing something or making something of myself.

My new identity is wrapped up in my children. I’m okay with that. I’m scared, but I’m okay with it. My biggest fear? Will I raise my children in such a way to teach them the love of Jesus? Will they grow up with a love for the Lord? Will they be followers of Jesus? Will they love others like Jesus taught us? Can I teach my kids all this?

My new purpose is not becoming successful in the eyes of the world. My new purpose is the ministry of motherhood. The Lord has entrusted 3 precious kiddos to me. My responsibility is to teach them, to disciple them.

This is such a huge responsibility for me. I’m overwhelmed, but I know that the Lord will give me the wisdom and tools to teach them. I’m confident of that. I’m afraid I don’t know enough, but at the same time, I know the Holy Spirit will guide me.

I am on a journey. A journey to minister to my children and teach them all there is to know about a God who loves us more than I can possibly fathom. I’m on a journey to teach them to love others and to chase after God.