my boys

I just hammered out about an hour of work, and now I'm looking at my home to do list. I love making lists because I feel so accomplished as I mark stuff off through the day. Today isn't too bad, but it involves finishing laundry from yesterday and doing today's cleaning duties.

I have this overwhelming desire to organize. I think the beginning of the year always does this to me. I never make resolutions but I always think about what I can do to better. This year I definitely need to get more organized, get more motivated, and spend more meaningful time with my kiddos. They are such blessings, and some days I just find myself surviving the day until they go to bed. I love them so much, and I need to get rid of some distractions to spend more time with them.

I'm starting to see the effect of my 40 hours vs. 32 hours on Isaiah. It's weird, but he's totally acting out to get my attention. I need to figure out how I'm going to get my work done without neglecting his need for one on one time with me. I have been guilty of neglecting that these last few weeks. I'm thinking I need to take him on a date this weekend. Not sure what we're going to do, but I'll come up with something!

Elias on the other hand, is doing just fine. He's a little rascal, but he doesn't need quite the amount of attention that Isaiah does. He's perfectly happy to be sitting next to me playing with play doh while I work, but I still feel bad for not playing with him.

I'm just glad that this is a short phase of working full time. I probably will only have to work full time for maybe another month or month and a half. Until I finish, I need to come up with a better system to get my work done without sacrificing time with the boys.