the lack of organization

I should be working. I should be cleaning. I should finsih my Bible study for tonight (I still have 2 days left to do!). I should shower. I should fold the three loads of laundry I piled on my bed this morning. BUT here I sit, taking a few minutes to write. Does it count that I'm multi-tasking? I'm eating lunch with the boys while I write.

I feel so unoraganized, but I'm not sure if it's organization problems or putting too much on my plate problems? I dropped one of my Bible studies on Tuesday mornings to help out with my tiredness and scheduling, but I'm still feeling a bit overwhelmed. I have a hard time taking advice from stay at home moms because we really are in different places. Yes, I stay home, but I also have 32 hours of work to fit in along with all of my other duties as a stay at home woman. But you know what? I'm willing to take all the help and advice I can right now.

I am by no means complaining at this moment. I'm contemplating. I'm trying to figure out what needs to change in order to get this chaos under wraps. I have started a cleaning schedule. I figure rather than anticipating spending my Saturday mornings whipping this place into shape, I'll do a little every day and keep my Saturdays free for my family (or the bit of work I need to finish for the week). I did a cleaning schedule before I got pregnant, but all my sleeping got in the way of cleaning so it went out the window!

What else can I do? I could quit my job, but Bryan and I have been praying about this for a few months. Last week we both received a peace about staying on, and I've decided I'm going to keep working. We are so blessed to both have jobs right now with good companies that take care of us.

All this contemplating started because last night Bryan made a comment (he was totally kidding just to throw that out there) about what I'd been doing all day to not get a shower in. So I started listing my fulfilled duties. It was a lot! It included 4 hours of work, 5 loads of laundry, organizing a whole lot of papers, and more. But in between I should have added get the boys a snack, help Elias in the bathroom, break up a fight, deal with an attitude problem, put Isaiah in time out, put Elias in time out, refold the entire load of laundry I'd already folded after Elias decided to jump on all the clothes, fix lunch, clean up lunch, fix dinner, clean up dinner....you catch the drift...whole lot of caring for children goes into the day.

I think I need to just focus on the caring for my children part and fit in my "duties" the rest of the day. I will get my work done. I will have a clean house, not perfect, but clean. It just may mean staying up late to get it done. But hey, it will all get done!