Thursday, January 5, 2012

happy 2012

I hate New Year's resolutions. Seriously. I think they are so silly because most people's lists include work out more, read more, more quiet time....blah blah blah. We've all heard it. So I don't make them. Instead, I live day to day and reflect each day how I need to do better the next day.

Some days are bad. I mean BAD. I go to bed feeling like a complete failure of a child of God, mom, and wife. Seriously. Failure. Other days are good and I give myself a nice pat on the back.

Lately, the bad are outweighing the good. I have been so focused on myself and how unorganized our home is, and I haven't been walking side by side with God. I've been shooting up those emergency prayers. You know, the "Dear Lord, please keep me calm before I strangle these little, loud beings in my home".

Not good. Not good at all.
Ask Bryan. He'll be the first to tell you that I can improve on my mothering and wife skills.

My reflections of the week? More time with God. If I can drag my tired booty out of bed and spend time with the Lord, I KNOW my day will go smoothly. It may not be easy, but at least I'm living with the Holy Spirit guiding me. The Holy Spirit guiding me is a way better life. It's a day to day choice. I need to make the choice of following the Lord everyday.

When I spend my day following the Lord, and I allow the Holy Spirit to guide me, I am a better wife. I am a better mom.

Today I will choose God. Today I will allow the Holy Spirit to move me, change me, and guide me.

Today I will be a better wife and a better mom to these lovely people.


Thank you, Lord, for your guidance and grace! I am a lost girl without it.

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