Isaiah is lying. Oh how I hate lying. Sometimes I can't tell if he's trying to get out of trouble or if he's trying to make a joke. For instance, he will throw something, and when I correct him, he'll say something along the lines of, "Oh, I didn't know it was in my hand".
It's a difficult time with both boys needing so much discipline, but I'm staying consistent and praying for calmness. A LOT. I get so worn out being responsible for these little boys. I'm learning so much, as well.
My discipline constantly leads me to remember God's grace. I forget how much I mess up since I don't have my mom constantly watching me and correcting me. I have a poor attitude. I have a short fuse. I am mean to my husband. I yell when there is no reason for yelling. These are things that I need to focus on in myself.
We are constantly quoting Luke 6:31 "Do to others as you would have them do to you". I have to stop and quote that verse to myself constantly. If I was needing to be reminded of how I was behaving, would I want someone jumping down my throat and yelling because they are tired? Or, would I want them to calmly remind me that I'm treating someone without respect?
God's grace is AMAZING. Parenting is such a great reminder of that for me. I will never be able to be as gracious, but my prayer, as of late, is that I will be able to show more grace to my boys. I want to speak in a calm and gentle manner and allow more grace in their lives.
I want to let the little things go. The little things that are not going to matter when it comes to standing in front of God. Little things like manners. I want to stress teaching others with respect and letting others go first, but is it really the end of the world if they slurp a little while they drink? Yes, annoying. But, not going to shape them into a more godly man...maybe a more attractive husband, but not more godly!
These are my verses I'm trying to remember...I want to memorize them and keep them in my heart as reminders while I'm disciplining, getting frustrated, and at the end of my rope.
Proverbs 15:1
A gentle answer turns away wrath, but a harsh word stirs up anger.
Matthew 11:28-29
Come to me, all you who are weary and burdened, and I will give you rest. Take my yoke upon you and learn from me, for I am gentle and humble in heart, and you will find rest for your souls.
1 Corinthians 4:21
What do you prefer? Shall I come to you with a rod of discipline, or shall I come in love and with a gentle spirit?
1 Peter 3:3-5
Really, these kids are such blessings. Their laughter brings me such joy. The disciplining brings me much self evaluation, which brings me closer to the Lord.
They are such gifts, and it doesn't hurt that they are so stinking cute!
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