teacher i am

Bryan and I have been discussing homeschooling for a few years. We've thrown the idea around, sort of prayed about it, but always ended on "let's at least put them in preschool and figure it out from there".

We started talking about it again this summer. I, again, sort of prayed about it, but quickly decided that it was ridiculous for me to start homeschooling at 7 months pregnant. I figured it would be too much for me to teach the boys, while being gigantic, and then taking a break in November when this little one is born (actually, I'm praying for an October baby because I'm so very large already!).

God started moving my heart in a different direction, though. I felt pushed to actually pray about it. So, pray we did - for two months. I'm completely convinced the Lord has laid it on my heart to teach these precious boys of mine. I'm so scared, not going to lie. I've had it in my head that I needed to leave their education up to "the professionals". But really, who is more qualified and more loving than their own mom? Especially a mom who loves the Lord with all my heart, and has this amazing person called the Holy Spirit to guide my every step?

So, once again, the Lord has challenged me to do something completely outside of my comfort zone, but I'm 100% at peace with this decision we've made. We'll take it year by year to see how it progresses, but for now, we're going to be one of those homeschooling families! To tell you the truth, I'm super excited about not having Isaiah gone for 3 days a week for 6+ hours.

On a sad note, we told Isaiah and Elias today. Elias took it in stride, and was pretty nonchalant about it. He has had no desire to go to school. Isaiah cried. Pretty much broke my heart, but again, I know this is what the Lord has for our family this year. I asked Isaiah why he was so sad, and he said, "Kindergarten will be so fun!". My response, "You don't think Mom is fun?". He stopped crying right away, but didn't really say anything else.

About 30 minutes after our little family meeting, he said, "Mom, so when I get to be 6, can I help you teach too?"

I think he's going to be okay.