Thursday, June 2, 2011

apprehensive?

I'm not sure if that is the right word. I can't really come up with the right word at the moment. My husband just forwarded me an email from our realtor. 


"I’m still following up with that couple that I showed your house to last week.  They are working with their financial adviser to see how they could pull off the purchase.  The issue is that they are retired, and would need to free up the cash."


We've had our house on the market for almost an entire year. We've had many people look. We've had one awful offer. The house is on the market because this is not where we want to be forever. 


Idaho is calling me home. 
Idaho is not an option right now. 

Yes, apprehensive. That is how I feel. Where in the world are we going to go if someone buys our house?


The whole time our house has been on the market, I've felt so ho-hum about it. I knew we could find a great place to rent for a time. I knew we have a massive amount of people who would help us with our kids and help us move. I knew that God was in control - if the house was going to sell, it would sell and that would be that. (anyone but me ever start singing Twila Paris' "God is in Control" every time they think that? just me? okay, well, it's running through my head)


Now? Well, it's our house. We had it built while we were engaged. We moved in right after we got married. We had 3 babies here. We've had 5 anniversaries and 2 first birthday parties here. Lots of friends have trekked in and out of here. 


So, apprehensive is not the word. Sentimental is the word. 

As I write this, that is what I realize. I still know we can find a great place to rent for a time. I still know God is in control. 


What I don't know is how in the world am I going to walk away from this house full of wonderful memories. Something I really didn't expect to feel because well, it's just a house. It was just a "starter home". We had planned to sell it within 5-7 years. We hadn't planned to start a family here. God had a better plan, and we started our family here. 


So Sentimental I am at the moment, and we haven't even had an offer! Silly me.

2 comments:

Jeni said...

Oh Jen this makes me sad too...unless it means you are moving to Idaho sooner! But just remember that you will make many more new memories wherever you go!

The Webers said...

Idaho is calling us home too! Though we have no idea when either. How great would it be for our boys to play together in Idaho! :o)